New Thought Movement UK

"It is time for change and change begins with you"

Yesterday I was angry with God…

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I thought why must it be so hard? Is it because I am black or because I am a woman?
And I know that this is no so. Because God does not reward nor punish people, neither with good nor with bad. Neither does God punish our enemies on our behalf.
We attract to us all that we experience.
And some may say well you can say that because you always seem to have something to be grateful for in your #Gratitude Journal. And I would tell them:
I remember the day I spent 8 hours in meditation deciding whether I wanted to be a #successfulfailure“. whether I wanted to call up on all my “bad” experiences, my childhood and make it #mylifestory. I did not! Because I would be living a lie.
When they told me as a child I use to wash a basins of clothes by myself and was abuse, I did not remember that. I remember washing a basin of clothes by myself and listening to the release of #NelsonMandela on my Walkman and tears of joy streaming down my face. That’s what I remember and I would not give that experience up for a million dollars. (well maybe 1M. lol)
When they told me that I use to eat half a chicken wing as my dinner and that was unfair, I did not remember. What I remember was skipping, not walking or running up the road to buy 1 pound of chicken-backs and having just enough to buy a chocolate bonbon biscuit which I enjoyed to the fullest. Then skipping back home singing and picking every leave in the back yard and green bananas and breadfruit and limes from the garden to make the most awesome meals. I would not give up the fact that I have learnt to cook like any master chef for a million dollars ( well maybe for 1M. lol)

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When I did not see or speak to my mother for seven years and I could not even call her mommy on her return, I was suppose to be sad, to be damaged to never forgive or forget. But all I remember was me having imaginary concerts in the backyard by myself, singing and dancing with the trees to vintage Soca and conscious reggae. I would not give up the blessing of having an open mind not hampered by parental influence for a million dollars. ( well maybe if was in cash. lol)
When I did not grow up with my father, I was suppose to be damaged. I should have had daddy issues. but I did not. I could not claim that and not be living a lie. Because even though I have seen my father for a handful of days in my life and spoken to him even less I learnt from him one of the greatest lessons of my life. I learnt that I had to take care of myself and not to depend on another to do it. (that in itself is a million dollar lesson)
When my friend Andrea Marcellin and I use feed all the members of our church on Sunday and stay without food because there was not enough, I should have felt hungry and depress and poor. But I did not. I remembered the joy of peeping to see everyone clean off their plate and chatting and laughing until evening service. (Would I give that up for one million? maybe if it was a bank transfer)
I should have developed a complex when they told me that I was neglected. When they said your mother should have taken you to the dentist. but I did not feel that way. even thought I never smile through school, it never stop me finding love I have been blessed to have been in love and to have been loved. So I cannot give up my experiences and claim to have a sad story. Because I do not.

Even thought they say sad story sells. I have been happy. With the little I had I have been happy, Many people get rich in the hope of gaining happiness and realise that money cannot buy happiness. So when you have, be carful how much you accept for your happiness.

We have come to live to gain experiences, to live and to be happy, if you have that you are already half way there. Rise above your sad stories, leave them behind, do yourself a favour and be happy. it is the best gift you can give yourself and the best offering you can bring to your God.

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Author: New Thought Movement UK

I am Joyce. I was born in the Caribbean Island of Dominica with its unique three hundred and sixty five rivers and grew up in St. Lucia, listed by Oprah Winfrey as a must visit before you die. I moved to Northern Ireland in 2010. By 2013 my life was a disaster on all levels, financially, emotionally and career wise. I found myself working in a factory making peanuts and constantly feeling like I had let myself down, like I could do better, but I was not. My marriage was in shambles, the honey moon was long over. My husband had found his long desired parent hood outside of the marriage. We were six feet in debt. The gambling and alcoholic hobbies were now serious business. I was a mess. So I decided to fix my husband. I did not speak to him for twenty-one days. At the end of twenty-one days I realise that you cannot fix people, and, the only person that really needed to be fixed was me. I apologised to my husband, but during that period, I was fixed. I had found the internet, YouTube, Oprah Winfrey’s Super Soul Sunday, Soul to soul and Iyana Vanzant’s fix my life. I had cried more than I had never cried before. I had found myself. And my life began to change. On Saturday the 8th or March 2014, after taking my daughter to a school activity, I suddenly had the feeling that “this is it”. I was done raising my daughter. She was on her way and nothing would prevent her from achieving her goals. All I had to do now was taxi her too and throw, provide her spending money and enjoy the ride. This simple thought changed my life. Before that day, I never had money to give my daughter, even when I got paid I either had no change or something would come up. From that day I always had money to give her. When I got home that day, it was as if my book of life had opened up. And I was not being judged, but I was being given an opportunity to review my life. Though we are always thinking, every second of every minute of every day, only a handful of our thought determines the course of our lives. And I saw every thought that had brought me to exactly where I was in life. I saw the thoughts that had brought me failure and success in life. I saw that my first attempt at a juice business had failed because I thought I needed my friends to support my ideas and dreams. I saw that my real estate business had failed because I had listened to a stranger’s definition of me and had given in to my need for security over passion. I saw that my restaurant had failed because I did not want to be “told” what to do and thought taking advice was me losing control and independence. And I saw the exact day and time where this intense need to be independent and self sufficient was created. It was the day I visited my dad for the first time after fifteen years and he insisted on giving me money to pay for glass of breadfruit or plantain punch a young man had made for me. I had decided then and there that I would never depend on a man and I would always be able to take care of myself. That thought had from then plagued every relationship I had had with the opposite sex leading to the eventual destruction of my marriage. I saw the deep seated thought of me blaming my mother for years of neglect, for my lack of success had been wasted energy and I saw that she was not to blame and that there was a reason and a purpose behind my solitary upbringing. I saw the exact day when I was eight years old and I created the thought “I do not have a toothache” in the midst of severe pain resulted in me not having a toothache since then, even thought I was the prime candidate for it. I saw the thought of me wishing for my husband to have the baby he so longed for resulting in exactly that. I saw everything. I saw my life. And I saw that there was no God punishing me or rewarding me, but I was creating it all. Through my thoughts I was choosing the life and times I was experiencing and I saw that everyone else was doing the exact same thing. We were all unconsciously having thoughts that were creating the lives that we were experiencing. So I decided to change my thoughts, and my life changed. On that day the book would not close, the record would not stop playing. I felt an intense truth; I could be a writer, a poet, or anything I could imagine. Thought “I need paper”, but it was Saturday and I had to clean the house. As soon as I had that thought the book closed, the record stopped playing. I felt bereaved, empty as if a great gift had been taken away. I woke up the next morning and for the first time in my life I could not see past my window. The fog was as dense as a blanket. Then it started again. The record started to play, the book opened up and this time I decided I would write. I used my phone and sent messages to every woman in my WhatsApp contact list. Every time an inspiration began to play in my head, a scenario, a memory that could heal some one or heal me, I sent it out. Once I sent it out, it stopped. And so after three months I realise I had written and published my first book I called Phenomenal Women. I had become phenomenal. I had become a writer. And I recognised that all women are created phenomenal. Our thoughts not only create our lives, it creates the world around us. It influenced the people we attract to us, our parents, our partners, our children, our friends, our foes. Everyone we brought into our lives came in answer to our deepest thoughts about our selves. I release that my husband came into my life because of my deep thoughts of taking care of myself. I realised that a staunch rival had come into my life because of my deep seated thought that people were talking about me and she fulfilled that thought to perfection. I realised that my thoughts of fear had created diseases and that by changing my thoughts I was able to heal myself. I found out how deeply connected we were to the whole universe. How through meditation we could completely clear up the sky and create intricate cloud patterns. I realise how connected we were to plants, water, and every living thing on the planet. I realise that thoughts traversed the universe at the speed of light and can create amazing co incidences and synchronicity. I realise that nothing was independent of itself, but all was connected and one thing influenced the other and all things could be changed through changing of thought. I realise that this knowledge could change the lives of millions and change the world we are experiencing into the world we all dream off. A world that was free of diseases, where people realised that all illnesses were self created and could be healed simple by changing the mind; a world where we could completely eliminate hunger and poverty through compassion, sharing, and taking responsibility for each other; a world where war was a thing of the past, because we all recognised that peace was an internal thing, and true power was not power over other put power from within and that what we did to another we did to the self because we are all one. A world where words such as racism, sectarianism, islamophobia, homophobia, were all thing of the past, because we recognised that the right to be, was a birth right, ingrained in the human psyche. A world in which we knew with gut level certainty that God was personal thing, an internal thing, unique to each and every human being, and it was that thing that connected us to each other and to every thing in the whole universe; a world in which we knew that we were eternal. It was not an illusion, not an imagination, but a real possibility. It became my life purpose, my reason for existing. It became a movement. A new Thought Movement; a movement towards a world of joy, peace, and love; a movement towards a world where we take full responsibility for our lives and we use the power of our minds to change our world for the better; a movement towards change. Because: “It is time for change, and change begins with you!” https://www.amazon.co.uk/NEW-THOUGHT-MOVEMENT-UK-MANIFESTO-ebook/dp/B01D8XZUPA

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