New Thought For Today
Don’t try to run away from yourself…
I met this photographer about two years ago and if search my mind, I can pinpoint the exact date and time. I heard his story and I felt an instant connection. I felt that he had come into my life to help me. I took the business cards he gave me. He gave me about five. I never forgot them because they were the only business cards I had seen in plastic and that you can see through. When I called him he said, you need a video for your book. Its going to cost you XYZ and you need to do ABC. I though about it and became petrified. I had to do all this, step put of my comfort zone, do something I never did before, get people I never met to do things for me. It was frightening. So I called him and said I change my mind, I would sort this out myself. I did not communicate with him for more than a year, but I always remember his name and his story.
When I finally stopped being afraid, and knew it was now or never I went back to him to get some professional photos done for my website. I went to pick them up and I hated them. And while I was busy convincing myself I was not afraid, I cancelled the photos and told him to delete them. I did not even care about the 62£s I had already paid. I would do this myself.
Then he sent me a text. It went like this:
“So you’re running away once again. You wanted to look like someone else and that’s what we did. You wanted us to make you look rich and pretty…”
And then I became petrified of being afraid. Of repeating the patterns that had kept me back all my life. So in desperation I called and rescheduled my shot. I said
“I do not want to look like anyone else, not even the celebrity photo I showed you. I just want to be me. I am beautiful and I am rich so you don’t have to make me look any other way”
You see if God, the creator wanted the Beyoncé experience he would go to Beyoncé. He came to you because he wanted your experience. Any type of Beyoncé you can be will be a fake, a copy an imitation. But you are the original the authentic and the new experience.
Most of us stop being ourselves, we stop being who are and who we can be and doing what we came to do because we are so afraid. Fear stops us in our tracks. But when we get out of fear we see the utter magnificence of who we really are and who we can be.
So after the photo shot we did the video I tried to run away from two years ago…
Don’t try to run away from yourself for it will chase you to hell and back.